Thank you Elysis!

[tacuma]

I wrote a fic for elysis to thank her for the beautiful lay-out she made for me!

She wanted an angsty fic, based on the song 'Where would we be now' by Good Charlotte. I used the lyrics of the song in the fic, but it's not really angsty. I tried to make it angsty, but it's difficult for me to write angst ^_^"

For everyone who doesn't know the song, you can find the lyrics here 


Title: Where would we be now?
Writer: Tacuma811
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Rating: PG
Warning: None
Word count: 1211 words
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis nor do I own the song ‘Where would we be now’.

Summary: Tezuka realises he is in love with Fuji, but Fuji has a relationship with Saeki.

Where would we be now?

‘You should give up, Tezuka.’

‘No Oishi, I won’t give up.’

‘You’re wasting your time. Can’t you see Fuji is happy with Saeki? Why can’t you accept that? You should leave him alone. He doesn’t love you and he probably won’t love you in the future either.’

‘You don’t know that. I have patience.’

I’ll wait

oO0Oo

I smile, you laugh, I look away

Fuji sighed.

‘What’s wrong Syuusuke?’

A smile. ‘It’s nothing, I’m just feeling down a little.’

‘That’s not like you, Syuu. Come on, I’m your boyfriend, you can tell me! No, let me guess: Tezuka was staring at you again today?’

‘Sorry Kojiroh, I don’t love him anymore, you know I love you. I only wonder why he keeps looking at me like that.’

oO0Oo

Tezuka sighed. He sat on his bed and stared out of his window, into the dark night. There were no stars, no moon. The sky was filled with black clouds. The wind was blowing around the house and blew the clouds away, only to bring even darker clouds.

Why hadn’t he realized he was in love with Fuji, until the blue-eyed angel told him he was together with Saeki? Three years together in middle school, two years together in high school. Why hadn’t he realised earlier what he really felt for Fuji? Best friends since the day they met. What would have happened, where would they be now, if they had fallen in love on that first day?

Where would we be now,

if we found each other first?

He shouldn’t have told Oishi. Or…was Oishi right? Was it really too late now? Should he give up? Tezuka sighed again and closed his curtains to hide himself from the darkness outside. What should he do? Should he confess? Should he tell Fuji how he felt? Should he risk his friendship with Fuji?

And now I must confess

That I am a sinking ship

Not now. Just let him be, let him be together with Saeki. Let him be happy. Just wait, maybe they will break up, maybe he will leave Saeki. Then he can tell, then he can confess his feelings. Not now, not yet.

I’ll wait

I’ll wait

As long as you want.

oO0Oo

Fuji sighed. He stood before his open window, the wind blowing through his hair. He wished he could see the full moon and the stars, but they were hidden, hidden behind dark clouds. Like all the lights had left him.

Why does Tezuka keep staring at him. Staring in class, staring at tennis practice, staring when they were on walking home. Was Tezuka falling for him? Was it just his imagination? Should he ask him? What would Tezuka do? Would he walk away, would he answer, would they still be friends? And what if the Buchou was really in love with him? He is together with Kojiroh. He is in love with Kojiroh, right? He can’t love Tezuka anymore, he is together with Kojiroh now.

I'm anchored by the weight of my heart

‘cause its filled with these feelings

Fuji sighed again, sat down on his bed and grabbed one of his photo albums. The album with photos he made in middle school, the photos he made when they had won the Nationals, a photo of him and Tezuka. Three years together in middle school, two years together in high school. If Tezuka had kept staring like that in middle school, he would have had the courage, the courage to ask why he stared. But now? Would he ask? Would he take the risk?

I’ll wait

oO0Oo

Days, weeks, months passed, but the feelings didn’t change. The dark clouds in their minds didn’t disappear. There was no wind that blew them away, no wind that brought them the moon and the stars, no wind that brought them light.

Tezuka kept staring, kept looking at Fuji and sometimes Fuji would look back, stare back, while he thought about his feelings. Their friendship stayed the same, silent side by side, but they both knew it was different. Every time Fuji was with Saeki, Tezuka felt his heart ache. He felt like crying when he saw the other’s smile. Would Fuji ever love him back?

oO0Oo

‘Syuusuke, you are thinking about him again, aren’t you?’

‘I’m sorry, Kojiroh. I’m so sorry.’

Tears, a hug and a small smile.

’I knew it from the beginning. He better not break your heart.’

oO0Oo

Tennis practice, like everyday. Fuji played a practice match against Inui. Tezuka was watching, was staring again, from behind the fence, Oishi standing beside him.

‘After all those months, you still haven’t give up, ne, Tezuka?’

‘No. I told you I won’t give up.’

‘You can’t do anything as long as he is together with Saeki. You can’t tell him.

‘No.’

So I stand and wait

‘Game Fuji. Six games to love!’

‘Fuji, there is an 82 per cent change that you’re not feeling well. You played different than usual. You would never show me the real Fuji Syuusuke. So, care to tell me what’s wrong?’

‘You don’t know the real Fuji Syuusuke, Inui.’

I keep my true thought locked

beside my hearts black box

Tezuka watched the two of them. Inui was right. Fuji was acting different. He didn’t play like he usually did, he didn’t tease Inui for losing badly, he was not joking with Kikumaru, he didn’t show his real smile, he didn’t smile at all. Something was wrong with him. It looked like he was sad, it looked like he felt down. He looked like he felt the same as Tezuka; lost and sad, like he was drowning. Had it something to do with Tezuka? Had he noticed how Tezuka looked at him, had he found out his buchou’s feelings?

It wont be found, it wont be found

through the smoke or the wreckage.

‘Fuji, stay after practice. I have to talk to you.’

‘Yes Tezuka.’

oO0Oo

Everyone left, except the two of them, left behind, together in the clubroom.

‘I broke up with Kojiroh.’

Tezuka’s eyes widened, he didn’t know what to say. He always wanted Fuji to break up, but now he felt sorry for his friend, who looked like he was in pain. He had promised himself he would tell, he would confess if Fuji left Saeki. Would Fuji get angry? He just broke up. Was it the right time?

What would you do now,

if I said these simple words

‘I’m sorry.’

‘It’s okay, I was the one who broke up with him.’

A fake smile quickly disappeared.

‘Fuji…’

‘Tezuka…’

Where would we be now,

if we found each other first

Tezuka grabbed Fuji’s hand.

‘Fuji, I…’

Your hand on mine I hear the words...

‘I love you.’

A small smile, a hug and tears of happiness in unearthly blue eyes.

‘I love you too.’

If only love had found us first,

our lives would be different

More than enough, more than enough time to be happy together, together from now on, together after five years. No more unspoken words, no more silence, no more locked feelings, no more sadness, no more waiting and no more clouds.

Our lives will be different,

our lives will be better.

Hope you liked it Elysis-chan!

Comments

[elysis.livejournal.com]

I loved it! And I love you Ann-chan! *hugs*
I liked the slight angsty, and I liked the happy ever after in the end! It matched the lyrics very much, written in a very simple and straight-forward way, yet full of emotions. Fuji never stopped loving Tezuka, even he was in a relationship with Saeki. However, I felt sory for Saeki. ^^;

Thank you very much for your brilliant fic! :)

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

Ann-chan this is beautiful...Tezuka is so patient and dedicated to Fuji. It's great Fuji realized his feelings, even though it meant hurting Saeki.

But love is never fair in the first place especially when others try to go between Tezuka-Fuji love! can't believe I just wrote that! hehehehe...sorry just very happy and tired as well...but free to write now....yay! and read fics!

[chibikaoruchan.livejournal.com]

*Teary eyes* I love your Tezuka... just like Junn-chan said, he is so patient and loving! (And so naive for not even noticing Fuji knew he was staring at him.)

I love the comparison with the dark clouds that hunted them. And I thought it would be a sad ending, but YESH THEY ARE TOGETHER~~ Really awesome job, Ann-chan. ^^

[jingy5.livejournal.com]

aww man that was so *tear* sad.. i feel sry for Saeki but at least he realised early enough what was goin and helped to make/ keep Fuji happy
and of course we cant forget Tez.. patiently waiting for the day Fuji would be his.. that jus shows the kind of person he is *sigh*

[mitsu-syusuke.livejournal.com]

i love this!
i'm afraid it will be a sad ending...
and i think saeki needs a hug, such a good guy he is...*hugs him*

[dark-kana.livejournal.com]

*loud squeel*
so CUTE!!!
gonna reread it!!! XD
Felt sorry for Saeki, I really did, but I am soooo glad tezuka and fuji got together! finaly, after 5 yers... XD
lovely story! wonderfully written!!

[a1y-puff.livejournal.com]

Angst fic with happy ending is LOVE <333
I like it! the way Tezuka is soooo loyal to his love for Fuji, and yes, the comparison with the dar clouds is nice :D
story-wise, this is lovely <3

If I may add a bit con-crit, I think the emotion would flow better if you variated the wordings, and add more descriptions. there's a tendency of "after this, then this, and then this..." and I kinda felt like the flow is a bit... err... not-so-smooth.. *fails to find the right word in english*
Well, I'm sorry if I talk nonsense, I just think hat this fic could be better but it's difficult to explain in english TT_TT

anyway, love it <3
us hould write more angst XD

[speadee.livejournal.com]

Kaidou bullied the first years at the beginning. He was about to hit them if they didn't clear the path for him when he could have just walked around them. He is antisocial, but it's not right to threaten others. In the Fudomine match, he would have hit Kamio if Captain Tezuka didn't stop him. Then again, Kamio provoked him. Still, like Kamio said, he had a bad attitude during the match. All this just gave me a bad impression on Kaidou. Most of the fights with Momoshiro began with his arrogant remarks. My bad impression increased in the middle of Episode 52. It was when Oishi approached the first years and told them not to keep talking about Momoshiro's absence. Afterwards, they were saying how they were lucky it had been Oishi instead of Kaidou, or they would have been hit.

It's good that Echizen sucks at doubles, but they also had him win when he played doubles in the District Tournament. They should of have him and Momoshiro lost that match. Then again, the Gyokurin players were also being arrogant. I've noticed that most of the players Echizen faced were also arrogant, making Echizen seem like a nice guy by winning against them. They should have put Echizen against some nice players and lose to them. As we were saying, they should have made him lose to Captain Yukimura, and if not, Captain Tezuka should have faced Captain Yukimura. They also should have Captain Tezuka win against Captain Atobe in the 1st round of the Kantou Tournament.

They never showed Captain Tezuka playing a real doubles game so we can't tell if he's good at it or not. I think he would at least cooperate. If he can't play doubles, he might ask the Golden Pair for help.

It's good to use fans, and one way would be to have a question and answer session. Another way is to have fans fill out surveys.

I've noticed that many songs are sad. I try not to listen to sad songs, but there are some that are just good, probably because of the music, not the content.

It looks like Sengoku ended up being the right choice. All the other funny characters will just mess things up. Actually, Sengoku almost messed things up at times, but fortunated Captain Tezuka was with him.

I try to avoid sad fics, because they're too hard for me to handle, especially when I'm physically affected.

It is hard to write about Fuji using the potion on the Golden Pair in that story. Maybe you could write it in another story, probably a sequel. Inui's green notebooks are almost like diaries. I just thought he chose a pink diary for his love life, because the color fits.

I understand that the lockers were necessary for the stories. I'm wondering how Inui fit all those locks into only 1 lock space. Schools in the U.S. also have lockers.

[eimaru.livejournal.com]

WOW SAEKI?? O__O' i thought they were just friends ... ^^' ur fics r always so good ... although its shounen ai ^^' good job sempai!