Thank you Elysis!

[tacuma]

I wrote a fic for elysis to thank her for the beautiful lay-out she made for me!

She wanted an angsty fic, based on the song 'Where would we be now' by Good Charlotte. I used the lyrics of the song in the fic, but it's not really angsty. I tried to make it angsty, but it's difficult for me to write angst ^_^"

For everyone who doesn't know the song, you can find the lyrics here 


Title: Where would we be now?
Writer: Tacuma811
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Rating: PG
Warning: None
Word count: 1211 words
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis nor do I own the song ‘Where would we be now’.

Summary: Tezuka realises he is in love with Fuji, but Fuji has a relationship with Saeki.

Where would we be now?

‘You should give up, Tezuka.’

‘No Oishi, I won’t give up.’

‘You’re wasting your time. Can’t you see Fuji is happy with Saeki? Why can’t you accept that? You should leave him alone. He doesn’t love you and he probably won’t love you in the future either.’

‘You don’t know that. I have patience.’

I’ll wait

oO0Oo

I smile, you laugh, I look away

Fuji sighed.

‘What’s wrong Syuusuke?’

A smile. ‘It’s nothing, I’m just feeling down a little.’

‘That’s not like you, Syuu. Come on, I’m your boyfriend, you can tell me! No, let me guess: Tezuka was staring at you again today?’

‘Sorry Kojiroh, I don’t love him anymore, you know I love you. I only wonder why he keeps looking at me like that.’

oO0Oo

Tezuka sighed. He sat on his bed and stared out of his window, into the dark night. There were no stars, no moon. The sky was filled with black clouds. The wind was blowing around the house and blew the clouds away, only to bring even darker clouds.

Why hadn’t he realized he was in love with Fuji, until the blue-eyed angel told him he was together with Saeki? Three years together in middle school, two years together in high school. Why hadn’t he realised earlier what he really felt for Fuji? Best friends since the day they met. What would have happened, where would they be now, if they had fallen in love on that first day?

Where would we be now,

if we found each other first?

He shouldn’t have told Oishi. Or…was Oishi right? Was it really too late now? Should he give up? Tezuka sighed again and closed his curtains to hide himself from the darkness outside. What should he do? Should he confess? Should he tell Fuji how he felt? Should he risk his friendship with Fuji?

And now I must confess

That I am a sinking ship

Not now. Just let him be, let him be together with Saeki. Let him be happy. Just wait, maybe they will break up, maybe he will leave Saeki. Then he can tell, then he can confess his feelings. Not now, not yet.

I’ll wait

I’ll wait

As long as you want.

oO0Oo

Fuji sighed. He stood before his open window, the wind blowing through his hair. He wished he could see the full moon and the stars, but they were hidden, hidden behind dark clouds. Like all the lights had left him.

Why does Tezuka keep staring at him. Staring in class, staring at tennis practice, staring when they were on walking home. Was Tezuka falling for him? Was it just his imagination? Should he ask him? What would Tezuka do? Would he walk away, would he answer, would they still be friends? And what if the Buchou was really in love with him? He is together with Kojiroh. He is in love with Kojiroh, right? He can’t love Tezuka anymore, he is together with Kojiroh now.

I'm anchored by the weight of my heart

‘cause its filled with these feelings

Fuji sighed again, sat down on his bed and grabbed one of his photo albums. The album with photos he made in middle school, the photos he made when they had won the Nationals, a photo of him and Tezuka. Three years together in middle school, two years together in high school. If Tezuka had kept staring like that in middle school, he would have had the courage, the courage to ask why he stared. But now? Would he ask? Would he take the risk?

I’ll wait

oO0Oo

Days, weeks, months passed, but the feelings didn’t change. The dark clouds in their minds didn’t disappear. There was no wind that blew them away, no wind that brought them the moon and the stars, no wind that brought them light.

Tezuka kept staring, kept looking at Fuji and sometimes Fuji would look back, stare back, while he thought about his feelings. Their friendship stayed the same, silent side by side, but they both knew it was different. Every time Fuji was with Saeki, Tezuka felt his heart ache. He felt like crying when he saw the other’s smile. Would Fuji ever love him back?

oO0Oo

‘Syuusuke, you are thinking about him again, aren’t you?’

‘I’m sorry, Kojiroh. I’m so sorry.’

Tears, a hug and a small smile.

’I knew it from the beginning. He better not break your heart.’

oO0Oo

Tennis practice, like everyday. Fuji played a practice match against Inui. Tezuka was watching, was staring again, from behind the fence, Oishi standing beside him.

‘After all those months, you still haven’t give up, ne, Tezuka?’

‘No. I told you I won’t give up.’

‘You can’t do anything as long as he is together with Saeki. You can’t tell him.

‘No.’

So I stand and wait

‘Game Fuji. Six games to love!’

‘Fuji, there is an 82 per cent change that you’re not feeling well. You played different than usual. You would never show me the real Fuji Syuusuke. So, care to tell me what’s wrong?’

‘You don’t know the real Fuji Syuusuke, Inui.’

I keep my true thought locked

beside my hearts black box

Tezuka watched the two of them. Inui was right. Fuji was acting different. He didn’t play like he usually did, he didn’t tease Inui for losing badly, he was not joking with Kikumaru, he didn’t show his real smile, he didn’t smile at all. Something was wrong with him. It looked like he was sad, it looked like he felt down. He looked like he felt the same as Tezuka; lost and sad, like he was drowning. Had it something to do with Tezuka? Had he noticed how Tezuka looked at him, had he found out his buchou’s feelings?

It wont be found, it wont be found

through the smoke or the wreckage.

‘Fuji, stay after practice. I have to talk to you.’

‘Yes Tezuka.’

oO0Oo

Everyone left, except the two of them, left behind, together in the clubroom.

‘I broke up with Kojiroh.’

Tezuka’s eyes widened, he didn’t know what to say. He always wanted Fuji to break up, but now he felt sorry for his friend, who looked like he was in pain. He had promised himself he would tell, he would confess if Fuji left Saeki. Would Fuji get angry? He just broke up. Was it the right time?

What would you do now,

if I said these simple words

‘I’m sorry.’

‘It’s okay, I was the one who broke up with him.’

A fake smile quickly disappeared.

‘Fuji…’

‘Tezuka…’

Where would we be now,

if we found each other first

Tezuka grabbed Fuji’s hand.

‘Fuji, I…’

Your hand on mine I hear the words...

‘I love you.’

A small smile, a hug and tears of happiness in unearthly blue eyes.

‘I love you too.’

If only love had found us first,

our lives would be different

More than enough, more than enough time to be happy together, together from now on, together after five years. No more unspoken words, no more silence, no more locked feelings, no more sadness, no more waiting and no more clouds.

Our lives will be different,

our lives will be better.

Hope you liked it Elysis-chan!

Comments

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm really glad you like it!
I think Tezuka is a patient guy. If he wants something and he can't get it immediately, he'll wait and work for it.

I feel kinda sorry for Saeki >__< But he knows Fuji loves Tezuka, it was better to let him go. Saeki won't try to go between Tezuka and Fuji! XD
Read, write, have fun! XD

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

But Tezuka should have acted on it sooner, so he didn't have to waste the years between them...but I guess being a fool-hearted gentleman that he is, he respects Fuji's choices and waits.

Oy, it is consoling to know how relationships evolve and how the two eventually ends up with each other in the end.

Saeki....he'll be alright, I guess and no matter what he plans to do, or any other men, for the matter, to come between these two - it would be a vwasted effort!

doing a lot of reading...*cries* can't write.... CHIBI FUJI WHERE ARE YOU?
...can't believe this, he's gone somewhere again....argh!

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but Tezuka is a little slow with things like love. He is a little naive and too innocent, that's why he realises he love Fuji when Fuji has a relationship with Saeki! But he is indeed a gentleman and he won't ruin their relationship on purpose.

Tezuka and Fuji are just made for each other, they'll always end up together ^___^

Yeah, Saeki will be alright. He will survive, he will find another one to love (like Yuuta XD). He knew from the beginning that Fuji was still in love with Tezuka.

Chibi Fuji is gone? I'll help you with searching! We must find him, or you can't write anymore! That would be...a disaster! *starts searching for chibi Fuji

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

Found chibi Fuji. I have this wood pedestal for a perfume bottle, I used as a stand for Tezuka plushie and his mini Fuji (well one of the mini Fujis) because I was playing around last night with them rpg after I completed my paper and waiting for the confirmation of my submission...so I had the mini Fuji standing on the pedestal and Tezuka went goo-goo ga-ga just standing infront of mini Fuji admiring him like some god(dess) of some sort. Well chibi Fuji wanted to find a pedestal for him and they were searching for one...didn't find one but I told him he has his plush cushion to sit on and he's seem happy - for now.

Well after having Fuji, I don't think he is that naive and innocent anymore... (noticing Tezuka plushies blushing) but I do admire his gentle comportment and patience.

I couldn't agree with you more - Tezuka and Fuji will stay together forever...unless we write fics about breaking up....hmmm...

SMACK! Ow! Fuji...here we go again *feels bump in forehead*

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you found chibi Fuji! Such a nice boy, helps Tezuka with searching for a pedestal! But he should tell you next time where he goed, so you don't have to worry about him!

XD So true, he is not innocent anymore, but before he was with Fuji, he was a little naive and innocent XD But he will always be gentle and he will always have patience, he has to be patient if he wants to live with Fuji! XD

Chibi Fuji doesn't want it them to break up!
I won't write about them breaking up! I just can't do that! XD

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

no he didn't like that...but he's too quick to react then later realizes it's just a silly thought...but i guess he doesn't even want to think that way and I kind of understand...I would be placing him in such a lonely frame of mind if I write such fics...

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't write such fics, shouldn't even think about it. Fuji will be lonely and sad, his smile will dissapear and we don't want that to happen! He just needs Tezuka.

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

it's ok, no worries, chat with chibi Fuji about a new story that I want to look into for a b-day fic and he likes it...so hopefully it will be interesting enough. Chibi Fuji is actually excited about it...ok...ok...ok... gomen
he's telling me to hurry and get started with the writing...urgh...my muse could be a pain sometimes!

off writing....

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

If chibi Fuji is excited about it, it has to be an interesting story!!