Drabbles

[tacuma]

These drabbles are completely different from the fics I wrote earlier. A few weeks ago I said I would never kill Tezuka or Fuji in a fic and now I did! >___< I was a little depressed, because I had so much work to do and I listened angsty songs and this is the result.



Title: Finally
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Rating: PG, I think
Song: Finally by Twarres
Warning: Character death!
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis, nor do I own the song 'Finally'. 

Finally

No one knows, because I always smile. They think I don’t mind being number two, always being second, always behind you. But I don’t like it at all. I’m competitive, I want to be number one, just like you.

And now I am.

When you were in Germany I was number one, but only for a few weeks. Everybody still considered you as number one. You were on the other side of the world, in Germany, and still you were number one in Japan.

You’re gone forever, but they still think you are the best.

I always stood next to you, I always watched you. Maybe I would learn, maybe I would find out how I could become better than you, how I could run faster, jump higher, smash harder than you. I wanted to know how I could beat you.

I know now.

Friendly rivalry. That’s how it started. I hadn’t intended for us to be friends, but we became friends anyway. Tezuka and his little friend. I didn’t mind it, because you and I were the only ones who knew the truth.

We were more than just friends, but now I’m alone.

You were the Buchou, you helped everyone. You helped me. You helped me to get better at tennis, but I still couldn’t win. I still couldn’t beat you, but I didn’t care anymore. I had something better.

I had you, but you left me, you will never return.

Now you are broken. You are broken and you will never be healed. You looked in my eyes when you told me goodbye. Goodbye forever. I could see the pain. I left, I cried, because you cannot be, you cannot be here with me.

Finally.

Finally I can run faster than you did. Finally I can jump higher than you did. Finally I can smash harder than you did.

All I have now are good memories now you’re dead.

Title: Angels Fall First
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Rating: Also PG
Song: 'Angels Fall First' by Nightwish
Warning: Character death!
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis, nor do I own the song 'Angels Fall First'.

Angels Fall First

 

I once heard someone say that angels fall first. I’m not someone who laughs easily, but I felt like laughing when I heard that. Now I know it’s true.

My blue eyed angel.

Since the first time we met, you always looked at me with a smile on your angelic face. It’s hard to imagine you without your smile. Even when you lost a match. Even when you weren’t happy. You always smiled, a warm smile, because you knew it made me happy.

I still remember the day when we became friends, like it was yesterday. We never properly introduced ourselves, we didn’t need words. Since that day you stood next to me, always. No one ever really understood you, but I did. There were no words to say, we didn’t need them.

I wanted to live with you. I wanted you to be there when I come home. I wanted to be with you forever. Now I bury my dreams, they will never come true. All that’s left are memories.

Your picture smiles the same angelic smile, but it’s different, a cold smile. I’ve never really cried before, but you made me cry, you made me cry for the first time. You’re the only one who could make me smile and you’re the only one who could make me cry. Tears laid for you, tears of love, tears of fear. I’ll be lonely from now on.

I will never feel the warmth of your smile anymore. I will never hear your voice anymore, but I can still hear your voice in my head. I let the melody of your voice caress me.

You were needed elsewhere. You were needed to remind us of the shortness of our time. But I know you will be there. You’ll still light my path, you will guard me. Now I know that it’s true.

It’s true that angels fall first.

First time I wrote TezuFuji angst! >___<  Please comment!

Comments

In response: A poem for you

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

I gaze up to the blue skies,
and all I could think of are your eyes
I miss my angel,
now that I trek alone this lonely path
without you by my side.

----

I kissed your lips,
but you couldn't feel,
My touch, my embrace
I still yearn for your closeness
but all I could do is watch over you.

Dry your tears my love,
for I will embrace you
with all my love
from where I am.

Somehow the poet in me was awakened by your drabbles...my heart felt the pain and sadness...well done Ann-chan!

Hope you like....j

Re: In response: A poem for you

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I love it Junn! I really love it!
So beautiful! Especially the last part!

Dry your tears my love,
for I will embrace you
with all my love
from where I am.

It made me teary eyed! Almost made me cry!
Did my drabbles really made you write that? I feel kinda proud ^___^"

Re: In response: A poem for you

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

I wrote poetry first before writing stories. I love poetry writing because it requires mood and an overwhelming pour out of emotions to create the words... for some reason, your drabbles spark that mood and emotion.

I felt Tezuka's loneliness and longing for Fuji and the picture in my mind had Fuji, right next to him, full of his love for the stoic man, unseen...

it was such a heart-wrenching scene, these drabbles made in my mind...thus the poem was created. Be proud because very few writers can summon enough emotion in me and wake up the poet.

Re: In response: A poem for you

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I think it's difficult to write poems and yours is so good! The things you wrote in your reply are poetic too!

I had the same feeling when I listened to the songs. I felt sad and when I imagined Tezuka and Fuji while listening to the songs, the drabbles came alive in my head.

Thank you!!! ^____^ I am proud. You made me really happy!