Drabbles

[tacuma]

These drabbles are completely different from the fics I wrote earlier. A few weeks ago I said I would never kill Tezuka or Fuji in a fic and now I did! >___< I was a little depressed, because I had so much work to do and I listened angsty songs and this is the result.



Title: Finally
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Rating: PG, I think
Song: Finally by Twarres
Warning: Character death!
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis, nor do I own the song 'Finally'. 

Finally

No one knows, because I always smile. They think I don’t mind being number two, always being second, always behind you. But I don’t like it at all. I’m competitive, I want to be number one, just like you.

And now I am.

When you were in Germany I was number one, but only for a few weeks. Everybody still considered you as number one. You were on the other side of the world, in Germany, and still you were number one in Japan.

You’re gone forever, but they still think you are the best.

I always stood next to you, I always watched you. Maybe I would learn, maybe I would find out how I could become better than you, how I could run faster, jump higher, smash harder than you. I wanted to know how I could beat you.

I know now.

Friendly rivalry. That’s how it started. I hadn’t intended for us to be friends, but we became friends anyway. Tezuka and his little friend. I didn’t mind it, because you and I were the only ones who knew the truth.

We were more than just friends, but now I’m alone.

You were the Buchou, you helped everyone. You helped me. You helped me to get better at tennis, but I still couldn’t win. I still couldn’t beat you, but I didn’t care anymore. I had something better.

I had you, but you left me, you will never return.

Now you are broken. You are broken and you will never be healed. You looked in my eyes when you told me goodbye. Goodbye forever. I could see the pain. I left, I cried, because you cannot be, you cannot be here with me.

Finally.

Finally I can run faster than you did. Finally I can jump higher than you did. Finally I can smash harder than you did.

All I have now are good memories now you’re dead.

Title: Angels Fall First
Pairing: TezukaFuji
Rating: Also PG
Song: 'Angels Fall First' by Nightwish
Warning: Character death!
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of Tennis, nor do I own the song 'Angels Fall First'.

Angels Fall First

 

I once heard someone say that angels fall first. I’m not someone who laughs easily, but I felt like laughing when I heard that. Now I know it’s true.

My blue eyed angel.

Since the first time we met, you always looked at me with a smile on your angelic face. It’s hard to imagine you without your smile. Even when you lost a match. Even when you weren’t happy. You always smiled, a warm smile, because you knew it made me happy.

I still remember the day when we became friends, like it was yesterday. We never properly introduced ourselves, we didn’t need words. Since that day you stood next to me, always. No one ever really understood you, but I did. There were no words to say, we didn’t need them.

I wanted to live with you. I wanted you to be there when I come home. I wanted to be with you forever. Now I bury my dreams, they will never come true. All that’s left are memories.

Your picture smiles the same angelic smile, but it’s different, a cold smile. I’ve never really cried before, but you made me cry, you made me cry for the first time. You’re the only one who could make me smile and you’re the only one who could make me cry. Tears laid for you, tears of love, tears of fear. I’ll be lonely from now on.

I will never feel the warmth of your smile anymore. I will never hear your voice anymore, but I can still hear your voice in my head. I let the melody of your voice caress me.

You were needed elsewhere. You were needed to remind us of the shortness of our time. But I know you will be there. You’ll still light my path, you will guard me. Now I know that it’s true.

It’s true that angels fall first.

First time I wrote TezuFuji angst! >___<  Please comment!

Comments

[eliza-natsuko.livejournal.com]

;_; why is it that people write more angsty fics nowadays? *sobs*
i like 'angels fall first'. It's as if tezuka still posses some/all of fuji's precious photos he took when their together and tezuka couldn't let go. it's really sad ;_;
but still, fuji died! NOOOO~! *stabs tacuma*

(LOL! i was only joking. please don't get mad at me *pleading eyes*)

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I felt depressed, that's why I wrote angst. I'm writing humor now, I'll post it soon. ^___^

I'm glad you like the drabbles, even if it is angst. Guess Fuji gave Tezuka photo's of them together. Tezuka will never throw them away.

If you stab me I can't write happy fics! XD

[eliza-natsuko.livejournal.com]

*use magical power to bring tacuma back to life* there, now you can write a happy fic, can't you? ^^
and please do not apologize, they were good fics ^^

p/s: i want to write something ^^ maybe, just maybe (depends on my schedule) i'll write and post it soon ^^ mind to give me a prompt?

[crysaliz.livejournal.com]

asdfghjk....angsty Tez/Fuji <3!

I really liked the one from Tezuka's POV

[sayac3p0.livejournal.com]

That's so sad, and on top of that, you've killed both Fuji and Tezuka.

T___T

[dark-kana.livejournal.com]

oh... :'(
Angsty indeed... (And I am already in such a sad mood...)
You nearly made me cry at work (that is because I am feeling bad today...)
But I loved reading it... So sad. So angsty. Good written! But so... AU... ^_^

Huggles

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! ^____^ I'm glad you liked them

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I feel horrible >___< I killed Tezuka and Fuji! I'm so sorry!!

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Don't cry! *hugs* I hope you feel better soon!
I'll start writing happy stuff again! I don't want to make people cry! >___<

I'm glad you like it ^__^ Yeah, really AU, Tezuka and Fuji will never die!

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Wow, you have magical powers! I'm gonna finish my happy fics! ^___^
I'm glad you think the fics are good!

You gonna write? Great! I hope you have time!
I do love AU fics, so what about a fic about an office where both Tezuka and Fuji work, something like that? Or they meet each other at the super market or another shop. One of them works there and the other comes there often to buy stuff. Omg, I have so many ideas, I can't choose! Can you write a fic with the ideas I gave you?

[eliza-natsuko.livejournal.com]

yea, cool! i'll write something from the ideas you gave. lets' hope it'll turn out like what you want ^^ but of course, i'll have to depend on lovefujitez to beta-read it for me, if she's free.

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I'm sure I will like it! As long as it is TezuFuji, I'm happy! ^____^ Good luck with writing and I hope lovefujitez has time to beta your fic!

[a1y-puff.livejournal.com]

I've told you in email that I like both and they're so sad D:
but lovely, yes x3
BUT YOU KILLED BOTH OF THEM! <--(as if I hadn't done that)
I've given you my (kinda) detailed review so please excuse my incoherent comment here ne XDD

and lol, so many angst lately... I want to write more angst too!!
(and here I am trying to write the sequel for Behind the Glass Window"... what if the sequel turns out angsty too?)
LOL... I'll shut up now... XD

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you already told me what you think of them. I changed them a little ^__^
I killed them both...I never thought I could do that. I feel guilty >__<

Noooooo, please write a happy end for the sequel of Behind the Glass Window! Please! *puppy eyes*

[chibikaoruchan.livejournal.com]

Arghhhhhhhhh!!! The darkness club got contagious, and now 2 CLUBMATES DIED!!!!!!!!!!!! *Stabs self*

Tezuka... Fuji.... T-T

"My blue eyed angel." <<<<< T_____________T

Please stab me! please stab me!!! T___T <<(Lol, I sorta killed them too, once...)

[sayac3p0.livejournal.com]

You're not horrible, not at all! As matter of fact, you're a good writer since you can drag the readers to fell the sad atmosphere in the story.

And honestly, a nicely written sad story is beautiful in it's own way. Just like dark chocolate, bitter but pleasantly alluring.

[milkyxduckie.livejournal.com]

woa both are so sad... T__T
I like the "Angels fall first"
"You were needed elsewhere. You were needed to remind us of the shortness of our time. But I know you will be there. You’ll still light my path, you will guard me. Now I know that it’s true.

It’s true that angels fall first."
this part struck me deeply... for no reason xD
really nice angst you have written ^^ *thumbs up*
I wish you had killed both of them in the same fic so they could be happy together in the afterlife =p

[acid-marchen.livejournal.com]

I always like angst, and I like both of them. The words you used in the drabbles were simple but the feelings were deep. I don't know why but I like this sentence very much: "You were needed to remind us of the shortness of our time".

I always think that when I'm reading some dead fic of this pair, I would prefer Fuji died over Tezuka. Please believe me when I said Fuji is my MOST favorite character in POT, really. And Fuji's really poor as he has a fan like me. XD

[mitsu-syusuke.livejournal.com]

i like "angel fall first..
#i once heard someone say that angels fall first.I’m not someone who laughs easily, but I felt like laughing when I heard that. Now I know it’s true.# <--this line killed me..T.T

[akiko88.livejournal.com]

You really did well! The fics/ drabbles turned out really emotional. You can really feel the sadness of your characters.

Although I do find it extreemly ironic that you wrote a character-death!fic as you seem to hate reading them yourself. XD

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Omg, only 2 members left! How can we have fun without Tezuka and Fuji??!!!

I once made an icon with Fuji as blue eyed angel, but when I uploaded it on a website, Fuji's eyes became black O_o

Okay! I like to cute people! *stabs Tina* But now I'm the only one left. I murdered the other clubmates. >___

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your review, I'm glad you like them ^___^

I hope I didn't make you cry!

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your review! I'm really glad you like them. It's the first time I wrote angst and I was afraid people wouldn't like it >__<

You're quote is a sentence they sing in the song. I'm glad you like it, but I didn't write that sentence, I copied it ^_^'

Same for me! I don't really like death fics, so I hardly read them, but if I read one, I also prefer that Fuji dies.

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I'm glad you like it.

Omg! I killed Fuji and Tezuka, but now I also killed you? XD But I'm glad you like that part. I didn't know how to start the drabble, so I'm happy that you think I did a good job!

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you Ami-chan!! And thank your for your help! I forgot to mention that you beta-ed the fic, sorry ^_^'

It is ironic. I don't know if I would read them if somebody els wrote them. I always write crack, romance or humor and now I wrote angst! But you know what happened, you know how difficult it is to make a website without help of your stupid teacher and to study for a test at the same time! It's a miracle that you didn't wrote angst XD

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you, your comment makes me really happy! ^___^

You're right, nicely written sad stories are also really beautiful.

But I don't really like dark chocolate or really angsty fics, so my next fics will probably be like milk chocolate (romance, humor) ^_____^

[enasniyllagel.livejournal.com]

haven't read ur fics as yet, i'm at an internet cafe so i'll just save them on my flashdrive and read when I go home.
I already know that they are going to be good because you wrote them and I havent read something from you that I haven't liked before.

You killed Tezuka and Fuji lol lol. I never thought that you would have written a death fic. Congrats.

yeah I know i'm very very bad liking their deaths.

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Haha, thank you for the great compliment ^__^ I hope I won't dissapoint you with these drabbles!

Yeah, I killed them. I don't like it and I still don't understand why and how I did it, but I killed them! XD

[paranoid-fridge.livejournal.com]

... and to think I almost missed those two great fics because studies are eating my life!

The angst was just - forgive me if that sounds odd - tasty. And to take the weird metapher even further, I'd say red wine. Elegant, on the side of dry (especially the first one, with Fuji's 'now I can, but you're dead') but still rather rich in composition (Tezuka's reflections).

... say, might you be tempted to the Dark Side of Fiction and maybe, one day write more angst? I really, really enjoyed it ^^

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much!!! ^_____^ I'm glad you enjoyed it.

Maybe I'll write more angst, I don't know yet, most ideas just pop up in my head and most of them are sweet and/or funny. I do write angst in Dutch (no fanfiction), so there is a chance that I will write more TezuFuji angst in the future! XD XD

[isumi-ilde.livejournal.com]

That was... the angst...okay, I can't put it better than this: Pretend that I am someone who loves coffee. And your fic is the coffe that I just drank, and it's bitter, but that's why I loved it. And I DO love it a lot. It was heart-wrenching, but that's exactly why I loved it...

Ah, forgive my nature as an angst-fic lover..T-T

But I've never killed Tezuka or Fuji, I swear! Although I might do that somewhere near in the future.. *glances at my angst side of muse*

Thank you very much for sharing! I utterly loved this...

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your comment! I'm glad that you like my drabbles, because it was the first time I wrote angst! ^___^ I was afraid it wasn't good!

I like angst too, but with a happy ending. I don't know why I killed them XD

You're going to write death fics too??? ^___^ If you do, I will definitely read them!!

[chemiskorpion02.livejournal.com]

*wails*

why did you have to kill them?!
i like the way you wrote them, though, especially the one where its fuji-sama who died...BUT DID YOU REALLY HAVE TO KILL THEM?!

sorry... got carried away...

but then again... *WAILS*

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry XD
But don't worry, I don't think I will do that again! I like to write happy/funny fics XD

Thanks for your comment!

[eimaru.livejournal.com]

i like it ^^ its really good xP

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you!!!
I love your icon!

[shyrr11.livejournal.com]

*teary-eyed*
that..was..beautiful..
T_T
sad but romantic..
i loved it!^^

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

Thank you!!!
I'm glad you like them!
My first TezuFuji angst, I was afraid people wouldn't like it ^_^"

In response: A poem for you

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

I gaze up to the blue skies,
and all I could think of are your eyes
I miss my angel,
now that I trek alone this lonely path
without you by my side.

----

I kissed your lips,
but you couldn't feel,
My touch, my embrace
I still yearn for your closeness
but all I could do is watch over you.

Dry your tears my love,
for I will embrace you
with all my love
from where I am.

Somehow the poet in me was awakened by your drabbles...my heart felt the pain and sadness...well done Ann-chan!

Hope you like....j

Re: In response: A poem for you

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I love it Junn! I really love it!
So beautiful! Especially the last part!

Dry your tears my love,
for I will embrace you
with all my love
from where I am.

It made me teary eyed! Almost made me cry!
Did my drabbles really made you write that? I feel kinda proud ^___^"

Re: In response: A poem for you

[lovefujitez.livejournal.com]

I wrote poetry first before writing stories. I love poetry writing because it requires mood and an overwhelming pour out of emotions to create the words... for some reason, your drabbles spark that mood and emotion.

I felt Tezuka's loneliness and longing for Fuji and the picture in my mind had Fuji, right next to him, full of his love for the stoic man, unseen...

it was such a heart-wrenching scene, these drabbles made in my mind...thus the poem was created. Be proud because very few writers can summon enough emotion in me and wake up the poet.

Re: In response: A poem for you

[tacuma811.livejournal.com]

I think it's difficult to write poems and yours is so good! The things you wrote in your reply are poetic too!

I had the same feeling when I listened to the songs. I felt sad and when I imagined Tezuka and Fuji while listening to the songs, the drabbles came alive in my head.

Thank you!!! ^____^ I am proud. You made me really happy!